Meditation means..

Sanyas.

Death of Thoughts, Memories, Imagination, Curiosity, Lust, and so on...

Becoming stranger to every thing that pulls you. So much that things no longer pull on you. Stop arising.

Until there is deep silence. Not deadly silence. But silence that is full of music. Dance. Celebration.

How can mind be dissolved?

First, there is mind.

Then there is silent mind. Absolutely without thoughts.

Still though there is mind. Like a still lake. All ripples have stopped. Crystal clear it is.

But this crystal clear mind is still this world. How to transcend it?

Let the crystal clear drop be dropped. Let go of it. Along with let go of the self this drop defines.

Let this little crystal drop be dropped into the infinite ocean. Infinite self. Let it dissolve. 

And in dissolution lose itself completely. 

To be the supreme self.

Grasping Consciousness

Coming back to the haunting question..

Is consciousness the light, the current, with which we are running?

The constant amongst all things changing?

The channel through which we see all that is.

Agnostic to whatever it is that we see -- real life, dream., this life, past life...

Is meditation dis-engaging from seeing through consciousness to seeing consciousness itself?

Rather feeling that there is something more to seeing. The thing seeing the scenes.  What is it?

It must be not what all that is experience-able as all experiences happen through it, in it.

Rather it must have some un-worldly properties:

Timelessness.
Spacelessness.
Thoughtlessness.
Soundlessness
Limitless

Grasping Timelessness

Time ceases to exist when you are neither awake nor dreaming b/c there is nothing that is happening.

For time to exist there must something that happens as perceived by our minds (either in real world or in dream). Our mind must be engaged. 

Time is just like a light bulb that when plugged into the socket lights up the room -- same as we get plugged back into the world, and we can't help see things through time. 

Just as without bulb there would be darkness, without time there would be darkness of timelessness.

Mediation is synonymous with timelessness, and dis-engaging from mind.

Creation and destruction go together

In destruction lie seeds of new creation.

Creation cannot happen on top of creation. It needs raw ground. That is free to be formed into new.

Likewise destruction cannot happen on top of destruction either. It needs some creation to destroy.

To re-create self, one must self-destroy existing self?

Being and non-being arise together

The duality is always there. The whole universe manifests in duality. In other words contradictions.

Pick anything. There is a duality.

If you try to be some being, the non-being will also arise.

As you try to become something (or others make you become), anything, there will arise in you (or in others) your un-becoming of same thing.

There is no escape. Except to be just aware. With the awareness grounded in the infinite being that stays so still with all the becoming and un-becoming happening in it.

Are we empty ?

Really empty?
What meaning does it have?

Let's disagree and say there is something in us. What must be within that something? And if there is some inner thing in that something, what must be within that some inner thing? ....

There must be a stop at some final innermost thing.

What must be that final thing?

If the final thing is not nothing, it must be something, again subject to inner exploration. Hence if there is a final thing it must be nothing. Something that is not a thing we know. Formless. Uknown.

If the final thing is nothing, then at the core we are nothing, at the seed level we are nothing. Nothing at all. We are just composed of absymal amount of nothing. We are just wrapping around hollowness and emptiness.

In nothinglessness we live, but so empty inside?

If we are so empty, then we are like a shadow which has a form, but has nothing in it. The real thing is whatever that is projecting us from nothingness into a shadow.

Where  might be that real thing?

Meaninglessness...

or some kind of madness is it?

what for is what is that is not what it appears to be?

are we super deceived into believing into all this meaninglessness as life?

who is in me that asks, does it not know it from before?

is it some kind of imprisonment into the world?

with the only way out as the only way in?