States of Self

The primal state is like liquid water, where the individual self doesn't exist separately, it only exists of as part big oceanic self.....there is no barrier, no division, all is one.

Then some little part of self crystallizes, separates out, from the big self, gradually developing its own local identity from interaction with the duality driven world. This the ego self as we know. Which has forgotten that it was part of big ocean self at some point. It's just now in a different state of self, just like different states of matter.

The crystallization is kind of forced due to worldly existence, or worldly convenience. It detaches self from the source. And creates the illusion of separated-ness.

This illusory separated-ness is the root cause of all evils. We have committed our beliefs to it. Hence it becomes reality. In separated-ness the self cannot flutter in rhythm with the universal self. Cannot dance with it. Cannot remain fresh. Dust itself off. Rebuilt itself. Repair itself.

Now the harder this self tries to attain union with greater self, the more crystallized it becomes. Because its own existence is reinforced in call for union. Resulting in futility of any such pursuit.

It must de-crystallize melt destroy itself into the greater self, only then it can attain union. It must surrender itself for destruction. It must renounce every thing that causes crystallization. Precisely all experiences of the world that feed to separateness.  Everything and anything that is ego. The self name that is given to this separate self.

Once dissolved, it is back to its original state. Where it is one with oceanic self.

Now its free.

This journey to freedom is awakening.